The days bleed into each other. Time is a circle. The sunup to sundown fog here in the city only adds to the dislocation. I take long walks with the dog, I leave my phone at home. I have walked every single trail in all the parks closest to me in every possible configuration so many times that I could trace you their maps with my eyes closed. I know where the honeybees have a hive hidden in a eucalyptus tree in Glen Canyon, where and what time to walk if you want to see coyotes on the backside of McLaren Park, and the best place to perch on top of Bernal Hill if you want a Red Tail Hawk to breeze slow and so close to your head you can hear the whoosh of its wings.
I like the image of your grandmother blessing you and imparting wisdom on your head (so to speak). Now it's your turn to share your wisdom with the world, courageous soul that you are.
Thank you for this beautiful writing! Love that line: "The ache of grief is the most beautiful thing I know."
What is getting me through? Long bike rides, family Zoom interviews, coffee with coconut cream, new hobbies (gardening/stop motion filmmaking), scheduling things to look forward to, meditation and the fact that I'm already an introvert and revel in wide swaths of alone time. Thank you for sharing your gift
i'm always inspired by your creativity, Aaron. Also I wouldn't have pegged you for an introvert! I didn't realize I was one, too, until I quit drinking....now I too really dig hanging out with myself.
Thank you for this Dani. I love “ I look to my history to map a future where despair and hope can live in some kind of peace.
I am working with notions of spaciousness and consciousness to try cope and allowing time for creativity. ( I have actually been super busy during this time and trying to slow down now and give my self the space to just be.)
SF memory evoked, when I was 6 or 7 years old, I feel into Stowe Lake and my cousins laughed at me mercilessly.
Such a wonderful family picture, thanks for sharing it. And I feel like I was there in your grandma’s apartment.
I too have been busy. And having a challenging time letting myself "just be" during down time. All of a sudden this week i'm taking almost daily 30 minute snoozes which helps...I know there's so much being processed just below the level of consciousness so trying to rest more than usual.
One of my favorite things about this newsletter is when you share your memories of SF. Big hug to you sweet friend.
This is beautiful, Dani! Love the opening description of the malaise of all this... you capture it so well. And then the meditation on family and ritual and loss. I love the scene with your grandmother and the blessing. Such beautiful images. Thank you for sharing <3
I didn’t know your family is from Cuba. One of my favorite trips ever... ❤️
Your writing is really beautiful. It always makes me think. Keep going... I’m rooting for you Dani.
i still have never been! top of the list.
thank you, Catherine.
I like the image of your grandmother blessing you and imparting wisdom on your head (so to speak). Now it's your turn to share your wisdom with the world, courageous soul that you are.
We are what will see us through. So true.
thanks Ted. I miss her so so much.
Thank you for this beautiful writing! Love that line: "The ache of grief is the most beautiful thing I know."
What is getting me through? Long bike rides, family Zoom interviews, coffee with coconut cream, new hobbies (gardening/stop motion filmmaking), scheduling things to look forward to, meditation and the fact that I'm already an introvert and revel in wide swaths of alone time. Thank you for sharing your gift
you remind me that I need to get a bike!
i'm always inspired by your creativity, Aaron. Also I wouldn't have pegged you for an introvert! I didn't realize I was one, too, until I quit drinking....now I too really dig hanging out with myself.
Thank you for this Dani. I love “ I look to my history to map a future where despair and hope can live in some kind of peace.
I am working with notions of spaciousness and consciousness to try cope and allowing time for creativity. ( I have actually been super busy during this time and trying to slow down now and give my self the space to just be.)
SF memory evoked, when I was 6 or 7 years old, I feel into Stowe Lake and my cousins laughed at me mercilessly.
Such a wonderful family picture, thanks for sharing it. And I feel like I was there in your grandma’s apartment.
I too have been busy. And having a challenging time letting myself "just be" during down time. All of a sudden this week i'm taking almost daily 30 minute snoozes which helps...I know there's so much being processed just below the level of consciousness so trying to rest more than usual.
One of my favorite things about this newsletter is when you share your memories of SF. Big hug to you sweet friend.
This is beautiful, Dani! Love the opening description of the malaise of all this... you capture it so well. And then the meditation on family and ritual and loss. I love the scene with your grandmother and the blessing. Such beautiful images. Thank you for sharing <3
thank you Claire! kinda started to feel like to separate pieces but I just went with it 🤷🏽♀️