It’s foggy again, and all I want to do is nothing. I want to stay in bed, I want to cozy up to my melancholy, eat chips and hummus until my stomach hurts, scroll into oblivion, stare at the wall; I want to pine for the wrong people and toss the to-do lists to the wind.
I know that to follow my inclinations will drop me lower than I already am, which means the distance to bring myself back up will take longer than it needs. So I wash my face and paint in my eyebrows and do some dishes and I wrangle myself into my sports bra so that I can go move some of this along, even though I don’t want to. I trust the baseline. I am learning to trust the baseline.
I am no longer trying to be perfect. I am doing my best to be good enough.
In these uncomfortable, holy, days of reckoning, I stay connected to my people. I force myself to do things that will make me feel even 2% better; I am in conversation with my stubbornness. I show up, in all my resting bitch face glory. I tell the truth and I show you my underbelly even though it’s awkward and weird.
I am loving you from my treehouse and hoping you get some small pockets of stillness and space this weekend. Just for you.
All my love, tuya dani
📖Read: My friend Kerry sent me this one: “The world can be a grit that sands away at us, and love can be a shelter from that” and “I wasn’t worried about failing, because if I failed my life would be just the same as it already was, so there was nothing to be scared of. If I succeeded, however, everything would change, and that was terrifying.” It’s so beautiful, the whole thing is so gorgeous.
👀Watch:
🎧Listen: Ok ok after a Saturday night breakup and needing all the distractions I finally listened to Glennon’s podcast and even though I can only take her in small doses (I dig her y’all, just mostly from afar) the episode on SELF CARE had some gold nuggets.
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It’s foggy again, and all I want to do is nothing. I want to stay in bed, I want to cozy up to my melancholy, eat chips and hummus until my stomach hurts, scroll into oblivion, stare at the wall; I want to pine for the wrong people and toss the to-do lists to the wind.
I know that to follow my inclinations will drop me lower than I already am, which means the distance to bring myself back up will take longer than it needs. So I wash my face and paint in my eyebrows and do some dishes and I wrangle myself into my sports bra so that I can go move some of this along, even though I don’t want to. I trust the baseline. I am learning to trust the baseline.
I am no longer trying to be perfect. I am doing my best to be good enough.
In these uncomfortable, holy, days of reckoning, I stay connected to my people. I force myself to do things that will make me feel even 2% better; I am in conversation with my stubbornness. I show up, in all my resting bitch face glory. I tell the truth and I show you my underbelly even though it’s awkward and weird.
I am loving you from my treehouse and hoping you get some small pockets of stillness and space this weekend. Just for you.
All my love,
tuya
dani
📖Read: My friend Kerry sent me this one: “The world can be a grit that sands away at us, and love can be a shelter from that” and “I wasn’t worried about failing, because if I failed my life would be just the same as it already was, so there was nothing to be scared of. If I succeeded, however, everything would change, and that was terrifying.” It’s so beautiful, the whole thing is so gorgeous.
👀Watch:
🎧Listen: Ok ok after a Saturday night breakup and needing all the distractions I finally listened to Glennon’s podcast and even though I can only take her in small doses (I dig her y’all, just mostly from afar) the episode on SELF CARE had some gold nuggets.
Thank you so much for being a part of this community. If you like this newsletter, please consider leaving a comment, sending it to a friend or subscribing. Or email me and say hi, I’d love to hear from you.